It already happened two years ago...I'm looking forward school starts. I know this is very bad, because it means that the last part of this summer has suck. After Rimini I didn't go out anymore, I didn't call my friends again when they telephoned me...I know I'm ruining my adolescent life.

What must I do? I hate my city, there's nothing out of the interest...At least when I went to gym I had fun and my anger or sadness went out for a moment. An other problem is food...Damn! I must control myself...When I'm getting fat I fall into depression...It isn't normal! It's not possible an adolescent feels like this.

I think I would have fell ill, if summer had lasted more time. It exists this thing...when a person isn't fine with herself/himself, she/he falls ill. Cause depression especially. Depression is a beast...

Maybe I lost heart when I saw my securety vanishing.

But I felt better with those few times I went out...This is my antidote surely. If my city was more interesting...

However I decided to start a Painting course with my aunt on September. I want to ingrove my artistic abilities to a more professional way. Damn...I hate myself many times; I wanna start much things, but I can't finish even not one! I'd like to start also a "cut and neddlework" course. How I'd like to make my clothes by myself!!! And I mustn't forget horse riding...I wanna ride with an horse AGAIN!

Since I was 5 years old I always told my grandparents and parents I want an horse only for me...

This desire is still into me...